Deathbeds

Something i read that i found interesting...
"Contrary to popular belief, depression is not a painful experience. Depression is usually a numbing strategy developed in childhood as a way to keep you safe from consequences of your anger. An emotionally healthy person can allow himself to feel anger without reacting to it. When you numb yourself from real pain (anger), you block off the joy in your life and become depressed."

Take No Days off

One of the most inspirational vids I've never seen, fuarkkkkk. Was at school today and at gym and on both occasions i "took a day off." I just wasn't feeling it at some moments at school today and my workout was pretty bad, felt exhausted as fuck and i know i worked my muscles so hard but i just didn't feel like i had done what i had set out to do. If only i had seen this vid then i would've been so pumped up, hopefully some of u guys out there watching this are inspired by this and go out and butt fuck your day. All i know is that i'm not going to be taking anymore days off.....ever :).

The Dictator, dictates our chuckles

Got the idea of the title from The Dictator which Jasmine and I went to go see today. What i reallllllly wanted though was to go watch Men in Black 3 but i gotta please the women, sighhhh......AHHAHA. In all honesty though i was more than happy to go see the Dictator :DD. Movie was so mean though ROFLL to so many people but it was my sense of humor which was nice and funny as fuarkkkk. Goddamit if i had all that power i would act so much like him LOLOLOLOLOL BAHAHAHA.

After watching the movie we walked around Arndale for a bit and i was scared of a certain 'something' happening but Jasmine comforted me sooooo hardddd :$ Actually got soooo embarrassed when she said i was super cute LOL :'). Goddamit it was amazing, simply amazing, screw her and her cute cheeks.

Afterwards we went back to the park and just chilled and i put on my jumper and apparently i looked somewhat "bigger" than last time if u get my drift ;))) AHAHAHAHHAH FUARKKK A REEEE SKSKSKSK. YAYYYYY, actually pretty damn happy with that final conjecture. Just hope im "big" enough for her though :D (im the biggest loser around srsly)

 

Picture of the movie tickets to authenticate post again because im a authentic motherfucker. We forgot to take photos though which sucks :(( NOOOOOO

Chiselled chest and bulging biceps sesh

Went to town with my cute, cute, CUTE little Jasmine :P She had a nice meal of chips and these prawn things which were amazing and i had a fuarkin sexy ass subway with EXTRA olives <333 Come at me olives, i love you all. Afterwards we went for a bit more of a walk and we went to a place that she THOUGHT was secluded and what not but there were heaps of people AHAHAHA, so we just went to the side and sat on the stairs :)). There we discussed lifes mysteries and transferred some bodyheat :DD. Oh and i did the monkey face and this weird little look away as if i was grumpy, she found both SOOO cute for some reason AHAHAHA. Goddamit it was so good seeing that smile creasing those big cheeks of hers :)).

Went to gym at like 6:30pm and pumped my chest and then biceps. Actually pretty disappointed in my flat bench barbell press tbh :(( Only did 70kg which isnt even my bodyweight :(( Ah wells only improving from here. Was happy with my physique as fuarkkk though, especially when doing dips and seated concentratin bicep curls. Would've taken pics but would've seemed like the biggest fag :PP (im no fag) (not much anyway).

 

Pics took inside the toilet lulzzz :PP Actually looking sorta thick now which is sweet :D Tan is still there aswell which is gangster but its fading :(( gonna lose all my biddies now NOOOO

Entrance of my gym for u guys :P, just a sneak preview for now, will get more pics later! Defs mirin the width of the asian guys back ;))

Explaining things

Had a maths studies test today which i was pretty happy with. Was hot as fuark though inside the room and needed to piss so bad with my weak ass bladder :(( feelsbadman.jpeg. Ended up finishing it all though which is alot better than my last test YAYYYY. Even got a bit of RF from zac....AHHAAH LOLOLOOL. Fuck i love being a gay cunt and making up these stupid acronyms LOL.

After school was over went to town with a certain cute little orange creature and just had a bit of a talk. I'm very glad that we had it although at some times i did feel worse. Ah wells what doesn't kill you makes you stronger :) and i love being strong (i love being gay aswell as you can see AHAHHA). While we were sitting down we saw this fat ass pidgeon lol which was puffing up. Was actually sooooo cute :'). Funny thing was that we were having a really serious talk at that part but we just had to stop and take pics. Little shit like this makes me love being with her :) alot for some reason :PP

 

Actually sooo funny AHAHHA. He's just like fuck the haters i puff when i want. Reminds me of her puffiness :))

Face the music

Facing the truth again, last time i had 2 other people's support but im riding solo this time unfortunately. It's definitely easier this time round though....somewhat lulzzzz. Good times.

Come on Chris

Felt like i was filled with despair today lol. For some reason i just wish i would give up and just stay like this forever, but theres something inside of me that won't let me. Not sure if its a gift or not tbh... sighhhhh..... Things are bad right now and the truth is that it probably wont get any better. Im so goddam tired and just hopeless, but for some reason something of me just wants to fight and fight so hard. So that's what im going to do, live with no regrets boys and girls. This is your time so do what you want.

5 Year Engagement, engaged our laughs

After Saturday school in the morning went to Arndale cinemas. Didn't actually know the way there from woodville high school but apparently you can walk there so i asked my asian lads and they pointed me the way :P They were actually quite surprised that i had never gone there from Woodville before ROFL and thought i didn't even know wtf arndale even was AHAHHA :P Anyways they said it was a 15 minute walk but i did it in 9 because i was in a rush ;) (sometimes im referred to as Flash Gordon)

Bought the movie tickets and watched 5 Year Engagement. Was actually the funniest thing ever and my sense of humor. Was also the bomb because it was a romantic comedy and i love dat shieet :PP (no homo). A scene in the movie where Tom was talking to Violet on the phone about how the donuts will eventually get stale anyway was really inspirational :'), idk why but it just was ahah. Reminds me of the way that i think and act i guess :))

Afterwards we went to the park and things got a little bit bad tbh :(( but eventually it got better in the end which is so frickin good IMHO. Afterwards i caught the bus home like a true sick kunt.

Ticket to show this post is legit brehs

Bitches and gyms

Went to town with Jasmine on Friday after school. We usually leave in our in lesson 7 but i went to a chem tutor thingy to up my brain levels and being the understanding girl that she is, she waited for me..... :$ may not mean much but she is a very impatient girl so it actually means alot ahah. OMG i love it. After we went to the park for a bit and just relaxed in our 'secret spot.' We ended up throwing some hot chips (which by now werent very hot) up on the roof. It was SOOOO funny because her throws were so weak ROFL BAHAHAHHA :'). So many times in the night i wanted to like idk just 'drift away' but i remembered i had done that so many times in the past and i just got sadder afterwards so i was like screw dat :)). Fuck i love it when i learn from my mistakes lulz, actually feelssogood.jpeg.

Ended up leaving her at like 7:00pm and went to gym to pump out some solo legs. Made a new friend called Kevin and he asked if me and Jasmine were going out lulzzz :PPP good times. Pumped a quick leg sesh and changed my routine to suit my bad back. Fuck i also love adapting to a new situation. Come at me new situations.

Been planning for awhile to take pics of my gym and show you guys but always forget lololol. So was thinking of taking pics like of the walk on the way to bus stop but after this pic i decided not to AHAHAHHAHA. Far out im a big loser :PP

 

Dats right guys, its a street! A rare experience i know but i was likely to catch it on camera.

Good shizz for ya jizz

Summer please come back :((

Actually miss summer so much :((, miss the days of walking around topless and just wearings singlets and shorts ALL time :DDD Also miss sweating like a motherfucking fountain. Yea dats right i even miss sweating ahah :P such good times. Now we goin deep into winter gotta wear heaps of layers of clothes and no more short sleeve stuff :(( actually is soooo bad. Tan is also fading like a fadeaway in basketball. Looked down at my body today while showering and realised how white i actually am now NOOOOO. Ah wells i still will make winter memories though lads :)) just had to do this sort of rant i guess though :PP, stay frosty boys and girls <3

 

The layers of clothing that i wear at home to keep my aesthetic body warm. Yes i stripped to take this photo and yes i was naked when this photo was taken AHAHHA. Dats commitment to this blog motherfuckers

Chapters 4,5 and 6 in physics

Had physics in lesson 1 and 2 today in the morning. Was hoping to finish off watching a movie on combat and newton's laws but we had a student teacher instead and he made us do the chapter questions :(( was actually aight though and honestly just ended up messin around the whole time LOLOLOL. Near the end though we all got really crazy and super loud, i was like shouting my balls off and sexually harrassing Ben. C as usual AHAHAHA. Teacher was just like fuck it and just let us all do our own thing lulz, he knew he couldnt control these beasts. Actually love physics <3

In lesson 3 had research project which was chill as hell, ended up listening to some gangster beats with Yioti and got my swag on via interpretive dance if u get my drift ;)....AHAHHAHAH. In lesson 4 and 5 i had maths specs which was also very nice. Love how my teacher just explains stuff at the beginning and lets us all fuck around big time. Feel bad for a classmate of mine though, Hunter, he actually gets bullied by EVERYONE pretty much :(( sometimes even me :((

After school went to town with Jasmine, we had a really nice meal in "our usual maccas foodcourt" and then went to the park to just chill and enjoy each others company :). Did a bit of parkour around about and then just sat down and i punched her in her abdomen. Afterwards i went to gym and did some fuarkin sick kunt shoulders and traps, actually pumped so damn hard and bitches were mirin' ;)) (they werent really LOL)

Pic of us as cute little babies side by side :D. Well atleast i was cute anyway. Strong taking selfies of herself while i was getting changed in the background LOL, srsly jasmine come on grow up.

 I look like a thumb head in the second pic AHAHAHHA :PP

Being sick and in pain

Idk why but sometimes i like being sick and feeling muscle and joint pain lulz. One that im currently experiencing now but pretty much beat is that my lower back is absolutely trumped from doin legs 4 days ago, i think it was actually from stiff-leg deadlifts lulz :P Pretty much feels like someone is constantly hammering my lower back and every step i take or every time i sneeze its like a shooting pain that makes it tight, idk how to describe it :P I also have a cold goin on LOL.

Reason i like being sick is that it gives me a chance to prove to myself that i am strong and can beat. When this shit happens i feed my body with anything and EVERYTHING that it needs to beat it :D That includes a shitload of water, veggies, multivitamins and fish oils, protein and carbs so i dont suffer any major muscle loss. Anyways pretty much beat it now so feels alpha as fuark cuzzzz. Come at me winter because my body is ready.

Great pumping song :) Discovered this several years ago during a WoW warrior or ret pally PVP video when i use to watch dat shit all the time AHAHHAH :')

 

 Everythings always is and always will be on you boys and girls :))

THIS GIRLLLL

Honestly can make me feel alot of things ahah :))  Don't even know what i want to write lol, just wanted to make a blog post about her :$ FUARKKKK im the gayest cunt AHAHHAHA. Let's embrace it now and forever lads :) Heres a photo dump of her cuz im dumping her soon BAHAHAHAHA (dat was actually a pretty good call :DDD)

 

Its sooo badddd how she thinks shes soooooo cute around me ALLL the time like srsly...AHAHAHHAHAH. Wait a second....

 

Crazy faggot one second, innocent school girl the next. When she does that face on the left her head like trembles but shes silent....OMG ITS SOO CUTE. Wish i could look at her do it right now lulzzz GRRRRR (no homo)

 

 Its gollum protecting the cheeseburgers AHAHAHHA, and whoa holy shit i said smile not fuckin create a zombie apocalypse u bitch ass LOLOLOL (im such a cunt)

Reading like a BAWS

Been reading a fair bit lately, apparently it expands the mind and its vocabulary so i thought what the hey. Use to be quite an avid reader back in the day actually :)) before i decided to be a dumb cunt. But on a more serious note, currently reading The DaVinci Code by Dan Brown and its pretty amazing lol, learnt so many new interesting facts on France, its art and religion. Defs mirin books teaching ability cuzz FUARKKK A REEE.

Weird thing though is like when i want to read i get sooooo tired and like sometimes fall asleep LOLOLOL but when i read at night to get tired i can just read for alot longer before i get tired. Weird how my old man body works :PP ah wells cant win em all. Not gonna stop this gangster from conquering books though. (yea im not gonna conquer many ROFLL AHAHA)

Red really brings out my pinkish lips :DD

What i learnt today

Far out today was a good day, been losing this concept for awhile though actually... But today it was known to me again :)) feelssogood.jpeg.

Learnt that when things out there are bad and getting worse its sosososo easy just to go with the flow and let it take over you. But it takes a true sick kunt to go against the current and just say screw it, its definitely harder to do this, but the greater the struggle the greater the reward :)) 

Managed to fulfil this today and now that i think back to it it FEELSSOGOOD.jpeg, really proud of myself ahah :P Moral of this is sometimes struggles are worth it, so seek them everyday :DD (Man i feel like a philosopher AHAHHA)

Saturday, May 5, 2012

jassy.

First time Wizzy baby

Did some Wix Khalifa for the first time last night :) Was a pretty unique experience but wasn't the best rofl. Just remember being down alot, and spreading a bit of phoenix tears AHAHAHAHA, guess it sorts of amplifies the emotions that i was feeling at the time. Not sure if Lorax liked it or not but meh, i never really cared what she likes anyway :)) <3 (yes i do AHAHAH).

Remember my hands and feet feeling really weird when i would touch stuff and it felt as if my limbs were really heavy even my pogo stick lol. Good times. Also had weird tingling sensations. Another cool thing was always seeing stuff when i closed my eyes, like i would see window panes. I remember seeing a phoenix and a dragons tail moving rofl. I also saw like the virgin mary and like a baby and then a cross, was weird as fuarkk cuzzzz. Also remember being in the Michelle's car and like feeling sooo weird AHAHHA.

Overall wasn't a bad night and was really happy that i got to spend it with my girl :)) (srs)

Cash money cuzzzzz :))

First ever Gym Membership

Started a gym membership at the UniSA gym on wednesday 02/05/2012, my first ever gym membership and it's only $85 for 3 months :DD which is actually heaps goddam good for u non-gym-goers. So far have pumped shoulders, legs and chest and triceps. Really solid pumping sessions FUARKKKKKK, actually feelssogood.jpeg. Been using a certain someone as my motivation lulzzz

Was really excited for this gym membership aswell lol and like was telling Jasmine, ahah and she was really happy for me. She's pretty FUCKING cute lol ahah :$ i really like it when she's cute to be COMPLETELY honest with you lads :))

Been really upping my nutrition and rest aswell so hope to pack on some SRS MASS BRAH CUZ BRAH CUZ MASS BRAH (apparently dats how i talk lol)

Sorry bout not blogging in awhile guys, just don't know what to write anymore :(( bloggers block i guess.....LOLOLOLOL <3

Strawberry Jaw LOLOOL

Went to town on a Monday afternoon with J-shred and saw Vivien T Dog at the bus stop and caught the bus with her as she was seeing her "boy," Andrew While we were waiting for the bus and on the bus Jasmine and Vivien were talking to each other and like laughing like absolute lunatics AHAHAHA, it was actually really cuuttteee. Probably because they were both so goddam short and like so easy to knock out......wait wut? AHAHAH :DD. Its also funny because Vivien looks so much more mature than Jasmine and Jasmine is like this little fucker with big cheeks :)) i like dat.

Out of nowhere the topic of my jaw came up and Jasmine told Vivien to touch it but she absolutely freaked ROFLLLOLOLOL, like completely. It was sooooo weird, LIKE SUPER WEIRD AHAHAH. It was like she was about to eat a spider or somethin idk :P But yea Jasmine just kept on rubbing it the whole time so that felt quite nice ahah :$. What can i say bitches be mirin' a REAL man's jaw ;)

Ended up meeting Andrew, and me and him had a heated discussion on gym while J & V talked about some quite "personal" stuff ;). Turns out Andrew is actually an above average lad and was a good chat :) I use to think he was a cunt lol, so i guess moral of this story is never judge a book by its cover. Truth is, he probably thought i was a cunt aswell :P (secret is....i AM a cunt :DDD)

 

Pic of them 2 back in the day. Not even sure if im allowed to post this but idc cuz im a SICK KUNNNNTTTTT KUNT KUNT SUPATURK KUNTTT