Riding it out, 174 of 348

Yesterday and today so far has been a really bad roller coaster. Sometimes things that happened wouldn't even matter at all and I'd be happy and then it would all of a sudden drop and it would be the worst feeling in the world and I would have no idea what to do so I just end up staring at my screen, reading some bullshit thing or watching some sad video on Youtube. The worst thing about all of this is that it happens every 30 minutes.

I've noticed though, that when I'm in this sad state. A lot of the "teen relateable" pictures you find on the internet have a lot of meaning. Been reading http://bexpham.tumblr.com/ pretty often as well and the pictures and music on there are really good when you're feeling down. Highly recommended it to all you teens out there.

The thing that is helping me the most through all of this, is the thought that every single guy on the face of this planet has gone through this shit and it's just a part of growing up and becoming a man. Like literally every guy, far and wide and even people that I see every day at school.

Hopefully this sadness ends soon guys, hopefully.

This picture is really all that I've ever wanted. Just to be on a beach all by yourself in the calm warm waters, baking in the sun. Imagine not having to worry about what other people are thinking and whether they like you or not. All you are, is just there on that beach alone. All these thoughts to yourself and all this quietness so you can think.