Eels - I need some sleep

It's weird how things turn out. I'm a bit frustrated at you but maybe everything that has happened to me is my fault. Just sucks how you were one of the main reasons why I stopped liking those people and also one of the largest reasons why I stopped liking that particular person. All the things that you said..... why did I believe it. Now, it seems like you're best friends with them all....

I got the short end of the stick for sure. Definitely need to stop playing victim though, need to man up and take reigns of what I have and what has happened to me.

You've had a really good day today Chris, going to Harbour Town with big Lou and everything. Now that you think about it, for those 5 hours, you were free ahah. Like legitimately free from all those bad thoughts. That's actually amazing ahah.

Even though you can't go to this Christmas dinner tonight, you have a variety of options, Thien's 21st, out with the Port Hugh boys and/or the Henley Party. All with great people that you hold no past to and can be whoever you want to be. And that person you want to be is a happy one dude that doesn't look for a fight 24/7 :). You're gonna make it man, don't let these 2 nights and small group of people ruin things for you ahah. Love you dude, even though no-one does. You got yourself and this blog and that's all that matters :).