Deep stuff

Always been afraid that i haven't actually been having a fun time and making memories and having good times like i had a really really long time ago. Actually makes me really sad sometimes :/. But after reading my old ass blog posts and everything that i have gone through and done since all of this first started i am really happy that everything happened. Absolutely everything.

There were times though where things were absolutely rubbish, like i mean complete rubbish. And by that i mean COMPLETEEEEE rubbish ROFL, there were days where i would just crawl up into a ball and literally cry myself to sleep (not srs)(ok semi srs) and would wish things were so different and that things hadn't happened how they did. Strong emotional cunt. Nonetheless, , once i really think about how things unfolded and came to be, i would not change a single thing (srs), from the crack of the thunders to the drops of the tiny rain :). That one person really did change everything....so goddam much, im gonna miss it.

Even if things are over now i will be very solemn but i wouldnt wanna go back on anything. Just thinking about everything that has happened to me in year 10 and 11 is actually crazy, strong transformation ahah. And for some reason i have a feeling that i was a positive impact on alot of the people i know, feelsreallife.jpeg.

So many days were REAL bad but the large majority of days in all aspects of my life and with a certain person were so good :'). I look back on everything that has happened and can't help but smile my cheesy ass pearly white smile, from the stupid little stuff that happened to the actual serious stuff. I look at some pics again and it actually makes me so happy that the moment when those pics were taken occurred, so much :'). This is all one HELL of a ride. If you are lying there on ur bed reading this right now. I really do wish u a good night and i just want to thank you for everything. So thank you Lorax :).

Took me literally 40 minutes to construct this post and put it into sentences which weren't longer than the really wise old chinese man's beard rofl. Probably my most "real" post, real talk lads and ladettes <3