Peeled mandarins

Definitely not feeling it today :/ really sucks. A lot of the things that usually put me down because I'm a weird emotional person are worse than they are. And the things that are normal for everyone else and me usually are bad and like I'm always dong the wrong thing. Then I try and fix them but it just gets worse and worse and I keep on falling inside this rabbit hole and then I eventually just stop because it feels like I'm just going to make things worse but it feels like I've done something bad already and it can't be fixed so i just feel bad and then sort of regret that I didn't keep on doing something to fix it. That explanation would've made no sense whatsoever to you guys. Times like this, I wish I could talk to you. Sigh. Tonight is going to be a tough night. Hopefully tomorrow is better.