Hard Leavers

Throughout my life I have let myself go and told people things about my life that makes me sad. Because of this, they have all left. I let my guard down and showed them my inner sheep instead of the wolf that life needs you to be and they left, unfortunately. The list so far is:

- Jasmine P.
- Olyvia Solos
- Jenna Zervs.
- Khadi OJ
- Claire M.
- Kim B.(Disappointed me so badly at Stralis it was stupid, makes me happy she left)
- Zoe P.
- Candy T.
- Vivien T.
- Kimberly N.

People bolded are people I had a lot of hope in.

That's ten people this year that were a big impact on me and made my days that much brighter and put smiles on my face but left because i told them about my fears and sadness. Most of these people I was so close with as well and was really hoping that we were going to stay as really good friends. This has happened to me 10 times this year and you would think I would learn from my mistakes but after 10 months and 7 days I finally got the message.

I've taken the right steps today to lead to a brighter future. I will not rely on people anymore, you are by yourself Chris. Help people but do not expect anything back EVER. Everyone is always out for themselves. Without a doubt, there will be more leavers before this year is over. Be strong brother, you can do this.

People that will definitely leave me soon:
- M. Lavs
- Strals V.
- J. Ly

Have you noticed, the people that you talk to about things but remain happy and calm every time you see them and never pursue them after telling them only a few things, stay as friends. Keep this in the back of your mind at all times Chris, there is no point being sad over this aspect of life anymore. This is what happens, it's a part of living.