Was doing maths before and doing statistic questions on past exams and I was scared to read the next question because I was scared I would get it wrong. See, now that to me is a really stupid fear but it's as real as any other fear. I think I have this fear because I know that if I get it wrong, it would tear into my ego. My ego is telling me that you did maths studies last year so you are smarter and can get everything right without putting in hard work and despite statistics being your worst topic. What I originally saw this as was a a bad fear that makes me a girl but I realised that I have this fear so that I can overcome it. I am given this small fear so I can overcome it and feel accomplished about myself :). I am given this fear, so that I can beat it and grow and mature into the man that I need to be.
This situation isn't as big as others or even as real but it is a fear just like any other. Need to definitely overcome my other fears, they are just imaginations that help protect the bad part of the ego and always about the future which is NOT the PRESENT. I've noticed that the majority of my fears never happened and the sadness and fear that I felt was what I thought myself into believing :P.
Strong late night epiphany rofl.
Truthful image.
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