body language

I cannot believe i didn't see this. Holy fuck it fuckin hurts, and i know this isn't because of that thing that i think i have and it's something else. I srsly can't even believe this shit. Omg, Chris you need to fucking change. Please fucking change. Please for the love of Jesus Christ and your fucking sanity, do something. Fucking just do something. I was really hoping watching that would help, i didn't know it would put me in this place. Disgusting.