day 4

had a pretty bad day at school, main good part was in maths specs when i was talking to Stephen and this girl that sat next to him that was international. i told her i got 18 and 19 for studies and specs and she thought i was like the smartest thing in the world ahah. truth is im not even that much of a brainiac. We all had a really chilled conversation though and it surprised me that international students can be really nice people. probably should stop judging people right away since i wouldnt want it done to me aswell... tried to do something today but it didnt work because something else was there, felt pretty shit. atleast now i know when not to do this thing. learn from my mistakes i guess and make progress, i can tell there is some sort of progress. even if its the smallest thing each day im still happy that its progressing.

after school i went to subway with david, strali and josh. strali drove us which was chill as, her driving has definitely improved ahah. afterwards josh walked home and got changed and strali drove me and david to my house so i could get ready for later tonight. got changed lickity split and got into the car and while there i was like, "nobodys gome right now, do you guys wanna come in?" secretly hoping they would say no rofl because im really embarrassed of my house. they said yea though so i took them both in, first time for both. it was normal that david would eventually come in but it was super weird how Strali was aswell. showed them around my GRAND house and then my room for a bit. felt really good not having to "lie" to people anymore and letting them know some of my secrets i guess. use to be really embarrassed of where i live and alot of that materialistic stuff but really who cares now. im glad that i introduced these 2 people to this part of my life. whenever i use to get dropped of by people i would ask to get dropped off at another house, saying it was mine and then walk home because of how much i was embarrassed and worried other people would judge me :/ glad that i could take these two in though, like so much, it might not mean much to them but it does to me ahah.... official interior house viewcount is now 3

went over to davids house for like 5 hours ahah, was pretty chill. little big planet was really frustrating and took my first dump there :P later on i went to Davids basketball game later on in the night with josh, candy, kimberly and chelsea. david ended up losing which was a bummer but everyone played really well, especially him ahah. saw this couple sitting down though and it made me feel a bit jealous tbh. sort of feel like im one of those people in the movies that are jealous of couples and stuff, man im such a loser.

just wish i would get some "feedback" every now and then but its alright that im not, dont really deserve it yet. hope you're having a fun time out there in the big wide world wherever you are girl

Me and Kyle. happy that i dont look like a klutz in my last highschool ID hehe

Strali couldn't come so i took these pics for her and sent them to her live with a score feed :D

12:46am

had a talk with SV that actually made my night/day/evening/afternoon/hour/past 4 hours :). thank you. youre a really really good person. pretty weird how we both have this same situation but its so good how we are both getting past it and were talking about it. man i love it