day 17

Oogalah, boogalah, shoogalal, hoogalah, coolagah. School today, chilled with some really cool people at school. Talked to Marissa alot, her happiness actually rubs off on me so much it makes me really happy. She is such a good person like srsly, i wish i knew her earlier on in my high school life. Really looking forward to talk to her and get some of her happiness (yes im a loser), hopefully im just as cool to her as she is to me. Played the guess the word game on people's iphones, feels good that we all got together to conquer this real challenge. Went to town after with some of the Asian peeps after school, saw Pete at Hungry Jacks. His hair is really getting funky being tied up ahah.
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Went to a place where we went just a year ago on this day, yea its Valentines day ahah. Brought back plenty memories and made me sad but it didn't hurt that much surprisingly. Probably because i was with people. Makes me feel really sad because its just been a year and this person who meant the world to me is now someone who i don't even say hello or good night to. Wow, that is actually the most saddest thing i have ever thought. And just a year before that i never ever, never ever thought in my wildest dreams that we would've gotten together and did all the things we did. I didnt even know you back then... Things change so quickly that it literally blows my mind, makes me feel a bit sad too.

I remember i got off school later than you because i went to some chemistry lecture thing, shouldnt have done that. I was lugging my heavy bag about and walked down Rundle Mall to see you at the Maccas foodcourts. I remember calling you and like i couldn't hear you properly and everything. Omg i cant believe i was using my old Optus phone back then aswell! I had good memories on it.

I rounded the corner and there you were sitting there on your phone with ur bag propped up onto the table and you had put some make up on for me. I think it was mascara. To be honest right now, i thought it looked a bit worse since i've always liked you without make up ahah. I was just really happy though that you had went through that effort, it meant alot. Opened up your card and it was so cute, so cute. The fact that we hadn't put much effort into all of this but it still meant alot. I dont know how to describe it but i loved it.

We then went on over to the Torrens river park or whatever and found that spot that u had found while doing that peer leader thing and you thought it was the perfect spot to sit. Just talked and took alot of photos, i wish i had a copy of them. I wish i stayed longer, more than anything today.

I also remember buying you that rose ahah, i was rushing into the lecture theatre during an SRC meeting. Literally last second because i wasn't really sure whether to do it or not, but i did it anyway. Did it all secret because i wasn't sure whether people should know or not. I dont know why, but i remember that fact so clearly ahah... Probably because i was really scared you wouldn't like the rose. Im so glad that you did :) Wrote down literally the stupidest message involving the word drillbit for some reason and later on had to chase down Katie to rewrite the message and i remember adding a question asking you to go with me to this thing. Ended up being cancelled which was a real let down (srs). It was so cute how i would ask you throughout the day about it but u wouldnt answer till you gave me your card with the answer.I wonder what condition that rose is in or whether you still have it ahah.

If i really cared for you and liked you as much as i have been saying, i would let you go.

Im actually crying right now ahah, but its not a bad crying. Im really glad i made this post